but I'm not really tired.
I think something is wrong with me.
I chose not to sleep last night, in hopes of breaking a vicious pattern. I've been sleeping late up here in ol' Connecticut, till like 10am (hides), and then I can't go to sleep at a decent hour. Usually not before 3am, at least, and when I am in the bed, I'm often laying there for a long time before ever drifting off. Staying up so late, I then cannot manage to drag my behind from the bed. Vicious.
so last night, I stayed up all night. reading mostly. I have been a reading machine! I have not been asleep since...sunday evening/monday morning. I'm hoping I'll be able to get to bed around 9-ish tonight or something.the bright side of not sleeping is that I've been doing lots of good reading in the odd hours I've been keeping. I have less than a hundred pages left on she's come undone.
in other news, my friend just suggested to me that I author a self-help book. what?! like I'd know where to begin...perhaps with
"i am such a nervous fruitcake that I lie in bed till the wee hours of the morning, thinking of and worrying about stupid, irrelevant little things no one cares about. help yourself break this cycle! just stay up ALL night, after which you'll be so groggy and bitchy you use sleep as escape!"
personally, I believe it would be a best seller. hahahah