Friday, October 24, 2014

Baby Luke's Early Arrival

I'm working on writing out the "long" version of how and why baby Luke made an early arrival to the world, but it will probably be too long to share. In the meantime, I thought I'd share the quick & easy version!

I went to the doctor on Tuesday August 28th for a regular visit and non-stress test. He told me to come back for another NST on Thursday. Well, I ended up doing the NST, seeing the doctor, and getting an unscheduled ultrasound, then being sent to the hospital for monitoring. Let's just throw in that TJ was in Oklahoma City for work this week....that was awesome. He made it home by 7 p.m. that night, thankfully.

After collecting my urine all night (so glamorous) and staying hooked up to the NST monitor for 24+ hours...I was diagnosed with pre-eclampsia and by Friday afternoon, we were told we needed to "have this baby." I was extremely excited to meet him...but I cried. I was scared. Although our c-section was scheduled for September 29th, he was not due til October 3rd. I received 2 steroid shots as we opted to try to make it to a Sunday delivery. 

Here we are the night before our sweet boy was born. Looking at this now, I can tell that I had gotten really swollen (let's not even talk about the sausages I had for feet/ankles).
35 weeks & 1 day pregnant
Luke Daniel was born at 35 weeks & 2 days on August 31st at 8 a.m., via c-section  He weighed 5 lbs. 13 oz. and measured 18.75 inches in length. By the grace of God he did NOT have to spend any time in the NICU and we were so so very thankful for that. 


Seeing my precious boy for the first time

Our first family photos

Spending time together for the first time. I was still pretty out of it and barely remember this.
(I did not have the c-section experience I expected and was under general anesthesia most of the time)
And why yes...I did put makeup on! Sue me. I barely slept the night before and was awake super early before surgery. What else did I have to do?! (PS - there is no resting in a hospital!)

One of my favorite pictures

We are now approaching his 2 month birthday. How is this possible?! He is doing wonderfully, thank the Lord, and I am enjoying every minute at home with him. He has grown a ton. Everyone tells you "they grow so fast" and "it goes by so quick." Well let me tell you...you don't believe it till it happens to you. 

This was on his due date, October 3rd...

A "selfie" one day last week. Where has my tiny baby gone?!

Till next time, bloggies! :)

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Newborn Photos

Baby Luke's due date was October 3, but our sweet little guy joined us 5 weeks early and made his debut on August 31st. Because of doctor visits and schedule conflicts, his newborn photos were taken a little late (at 16 days old) but that's okay. We still love them :)













See you soon :)

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Fears

As time winds down on my pregnancy, I find myself getting more and more nervous. A couple months back, TJ was telling me how he was nervous and scared about having this tiny baby completely dependent upon us. I was all, "don't be nervous, why are you nervous?" and acting like it was no big deal. I guess maybe it hadn't hit me yet because with each passing day...I realize my fears are there! I told a friend today...I'm kind of scared sh*tless. The days are few!

I'm sure this is normal, right?


I am worried I will sleep through his cries - that I will lose track of the time he was last fed - that I won't be on top of everything he needs.

I'm scared we'll have sleeping troubles.

I have a fear he will come out and the ultrasound tech will have gotten it wrong...and he'll be a girl. Not that this would be awful. I'd just be ill-prepared! (For the record I have no idea why I'm afraid of this).

I am afraid I will have a hard time losing the baby weight.

I am really, really scared of experiencing Post-partum Depression. This is probably one of my biggest fears. I make no secret that I've struggled with depression and anxiety for more than ten years anyway...so this fear has been with me throughout pregnancy. I hope and pray I do not experience this, partially for selfish reasons of course, but also because of how it would impact our baby.

I am worried that breastfeeding won't work out. I know if it doesn't, it isn't the end of the world, but I really want to be successful - and patient.

Speaking of patience, I'm worried I'm going to have a hard time with it. I'm not the most patient person anyway.

I am scared of being exhausted all the time and taking out my exhaustion on my husband.

I'm nervous about how motherhood will impact my job. It might be more accurate to say my ability to do my job well.

I am already worried about school for him. We don't live in the greatest (elementary) school district. It's certainly not the worst but of course you want the best. TJ has this worry as well. We've talked about private school, moving, etc. We have some time, thankfully, and there's always the (small) possibility we will be redistricted to a better school.

I'm afraid of having no "me" time. This is selfish, and I know this going into it. Maybe the better thing to say is, I'm afraid of how I'll adapt to having no me time.

Again, with each passing day...I think of one more thing to be afraid of, to worry about. I'm trying to just take deep breaths and not stress. This is going to happen and fear isn't doing me a bit of good! I KNOW my life is about to change...for the better. We are about to have the greatest gift in the world, one we waited a really long time for, and it's going to be amazing. I believe and know all of this to be true, and I'm super excited, just a little nervous!

Mommas...what helped to allay your fears prior to giving birth?